It was one beautiful moment after another this morning. When I respond or react to any situation, person, place, thing, idea, etc., with LOVE, the outcome is BEAUTIFUL. It is perfect. Overwhelmingly overjoyous, peaceful, loving.

I GET IT.

My heart is pounding as I feel it. And I can't stop smiling. EVERYTHING is perfect if you can be at zero in your mind. Being present. Debt free. Garbage free. Pure love. Everything and everyone has a name, a soul, an energy, a family, a history, a memory.

Ho'oponopono.

I love you. Thank you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me.

Today is Cinco de Mayo. And a beautiful day it is. I've begun to really listen to the divine, and I can hear it! I CAN HEAR IT! I feel it. And everyone can do this. Everything has the divine within it. I can be in love in every moment of my existence if I choose to be. And I have never felt anything more sacred than this. An inner healing. A light has been turned on, and I am not turning it off.

Here is one example. This morning, as I was walking outside with Kenny on my back and Every by my side (we were hunting out a spot to start our garden), when the neighbors' dogs spotted us. They are friendly dogs, and I know them well, but when they come charging at you barking, it is a sight to see. Every was in my arms in about 2 milliseconds, and Kenny was afraid too. I felt the fear for that split second too, but then I DECIDED that I would respond with LOVE. Not anger. On a day a couple months ago, if this happened, I would have silently judged my neighbor, and the dogs. A number of thoughts would run through my mind, such as "Stupid dogs, how dare they charge at us like that and scare my kids" or "The neighbors should have them tied up, they know I have small children, how inconsiderate" or something along those lines. Then I probably would avoid the situation entirely, walking away in an awkward huff, continuing to be annoyed.

But not today. Today I suddenly felt LOVE. A deep calm swept over me, and I thought "Oh look! The dogs are so active, so ready to play!" I saw my neighbor go around to see what the dogs were barking at and she saw us and exclaimed "Are you okay?" I said "Yes, but he got scared," gesturing towards Every, who was clutching me tightly. She apologized, calling the dogs back. I walked up, instead of backing off. I asked what the dogs' names were. Kuma, Pipee, and Molly. =) We shared a short chit chat conversation and it was nice. Every got to know the dogs and learned that even though they looked scary, they were actually very friendly.

Had I responded in anger and judgment, I would have totally missed this opportunity and so would have my neighbor, the dogs, and my children. But love is contagious. It spread like a wildfire.

I also learned that the tall electrical tower in our yard is Tower 23. Now, I DON'T KNOW if that is the tower's "real" name, but that is what I heard when I read "T23" and "L2" writted on one of the metal bars. I felt inspired to not feel afraid of this tower, and instead, to love it, and learn from it. I have yet to find out if it is harmful, but the feeling of letting go of the fear is beautiful.

Yesterday as I was cleaning the garage, I found some worry dolls. They must have belonged to my Aunti Di or cousin Allen. I felt inspired to bring them into my home, take them out of their little pouch, and place them on my altar, next to the birthday faery in the center wreath. This morning, I heard, or felt, that one of their names was Annie, and I felt inspired to bring her on our walk outisde. She rode right over my heart, tucked in the strap of the Angelpack carrier Kenny was in. Every discovered her there later and wanted to hold her for a short while. Later when we went inside, I went upstairs and my grandma was on the phone with my Aunti Di. I asked her about the dolls, and she said of course I could have them.

It is so crazy and wonderful how once you respond to life with LOVE, everything just naturally falls into place. Where I felt inferiority, I feel equality. I feel love. Balance. Perfection. Zero. Divine. Gratitude. Peace. Joy.

You cannot make anyone feel it.

The possibilities are ENDLESS once you are open to love. The beginnings are limitless. Everything is exactly the way it is supposed to be. And it feels good. It feels SO GOOD to just LET GO.

A problem is only a problem if you think it is a problem.

We are still human though, and "problems" will arise.

Our REACTION is what counts. React in love, and you will find divinity.

Within yourself.

Within me.

Within us.

I love you!

I am so grateful to feel this with my children. Ho'oponopono is the way I can be the mother I was created to be. Love. This is how I can be unconditionally loving towards my children, and prevent outbursts of rage, from them or myself. I've had such a difficult time sticking to "gentle discipline" and s lot of guilty feelings go with not meeting my expections of myself, my children, and anyone else. Now that I let go, I also let go of whatever resentment, anger, anything holding me back from te beautiful relationships that we can have with each other (whomever that may be).

Stop. Look. Listen.

Breath.

LOVE.

Feel love.

Love love.

Breath love.

Live love.

BE love.

Posted by fruitofthewomb at 4:37 PM NZT

Updated: Tuesday, 24 June 2008 1:11 AM NZT

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Merry Beltane/May Day!

Also known as May Eve, May Day, and Walpurgis Night, happens at the beginning of May. It celebrates the height of Spring and the flowering of life. The Goddess manifests as the May Queen and Flora. The God emerges as the May King and Jack in the Green. The danced Maypole represents Their unity, with the pole itself being the God and the ribbons that encompass it, the Goddess. Colors are the Rainbow spectrum. Beltane is a festival of flowers, fertility, sensuality, and delight.

My youngest, Kenny, decided to wake up before the crack of dawn, so we took the opportunity to go outside and drink the morning dew, said to be blessed by the faeries. Then, later in the day, we celebrated withour dear friends Chris, Amanda, and their daughter Evie. We made a wonderful dinner of Mediterranean Tilapia with Couscous, a salad, french bread, guacamole, oranges, and then some strawberries and homemade whipped cream for dessert. It was divine indeed. We drank some Pinot Grigio, lit a bonfire (shown above), and just hung out, celebrating life, growth, fertility, and love.

Posted by fruitofthewomb at 4:54 PM NZT

Updated: Tuesday, 24 June 2008 1:12 AM NZT

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Star Cake Rules!!

Okay, I don't have an exact recipe, but here's what I did. I made a simple pound cake (using yogurt, since I didn't have the sour cream the recipe called for) in a star-shaped tin that I found in my grandma's pantry.

The day before, I had made some pudding with almond milk, brown sugar, cornstarch, butter and vanilla, and let that chill in the fridge for a day.

So I cut the star-shaped pound cake in half, creating two layers. On a big

Posted by fruitofthewomb at 10:33 PM NZT

Updated: Tuesday, 24 June 2008 1:16 AM NZT

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A beautiful Bird of Paradise and Palm leaf arrangement, with half of a ripe papaya, as I started getting creative with centerpieces for my table.

Posted by fruitofthewomb at 10:28 PM NZT

Updated: Tuesday, 24 June 2008 1:18 AM NZT

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My tribute to the fairies. This is my altar that is set up in the living room, for meditation, just lighting a candle, prayers, anything spiritual really... Since May Day is coming up, I brought out a bunch of my fairies that I made a long time ago. This was a fun one!

Posted by fruitofthewomb at 6:00 PM NZT

Updated: Tuesday, 24 June 2008 1:20 AM NZT

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To be honest, when painting this, I felt the unity that I have with humanity, with women in particular. I almost wanted to title this one "Vagina" and considered doing a Vagina Series. Lol. I guess that thought was created thinking about how no matter what we look like on the outside, we are all similar on the inside.

Posted by fruitofthewomb at 5:33 PM NZT

Updated: Tuesday, 24 June 2008 1:24 AM NZT

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Accountability. I am 100% responsible for everything that happens in my life. Because I EXIST, I CREATE things. Feelings, actions, reactions, words, motions, love, war, anything is possible. Whatever I encounter in this lifetime or others, I am there when I encounter it, therefore I have just as much potential as any other energy present to alter the flow. To change the course, in a constuctive or destructive way, neither being good nor bad. They just ARE and whatever happens will eventually balance out, mentally, physically, emotionally, globally, universally.

Love and beauty CAN BE. Just as much as anything else can. Liky simplicity, divinity, forgiveness, gratitude.

When I put love into what I do, I feel satisfied, content, and at peace. This goes for relationships, cooking, art, playing, exploring, relaxing, working, cleaning, gardening, cleansing, ritual, thoughts, etc...

In mothering, I have come to a place where I accept responsibility for my life, or at least I strive to... When something "goes wrong" then it is time to cleanse. Something that I have created has caused a REaction, an uncomfortable one. What I have put out, has come back to me, and I must take responsibility for it. I helped create the energy. It is time to state my unconditional love for all that is, all that is divine within myself and others. Then I sincerely apologize for whatever I or anyone connected to me has done now or in some other time or place to create self-destruction. I ask for forgiveness from the divine, and forgive myself, and others, for these creations, with respect to living each day anew and present. Each day is a fresh start, another chance, another beginning and another end. I give thanks for all that I am blessed with, all that others are blessed with, and all that is good. 

Posted by fruitofthewomb at 5:13 PM NZT

Updated: Tuesday, 24 June 2008 1:28 AM NZT

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Welcome!

My name is Michelle. I am a mother of two beautiful little boys who have more energy than I know what to do with. I strive to parent with love, peace, and joy. Learning is constant and so are challenges. In my journey towards simplicity, I will put up pictures or words to describe my experiences and share them with the world.

Blessed Be.

Posted by fruitofthewomb at 4:11 PM NZT

Updated: Tuesday, 24 June 2008 1:29 AM NZT

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