Topic: Ho'oponopono
"I have found inner peace. And thank goodness! I CAN bring peace to myself, my home and family, my children...This cleaning has shifted me."
A couple minutes after writing that in my journal this morning, there was an earthquake! And I wrote:
"Oh my God! There was an earthquake right now. What a vibration! I'd say 7:52am, Guam time, and at least a 4.0 or 4.5. Very interesting. Geeze, if that is not another sign from the universe that I GOT IT, I don't know what is. I heard it and knew it was not an airplane (which fly over our house many times a day). My gut reaction was to drop to the floor, lying on the tile on my belly, ear and heart to the ground. I said "I love you", to the divine, to the ground. *I* was still shaking, heart pounding, almost panicky. I jumped up, trying to confirm that it was indeed an earthquake. I looked at the water in the jug, it was rocking back and forth. I hadn't touched it recently. The plants were vibrating, shaking, jiggling almost, lol. The water in the other vases around the house rocked back and forth. My body seemed to vibrate with fear. I almost instinctively thought of Ho'oponopono again and dropped to the floor, ear and heart on the ground. I dropped my weight, let go, said "I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU" to the ground, the earth, the divine. My body relaxed, a wave of calm enveloped me. I felt relieved. I stood up and looked around.
My boys did not even notice a thing, they didn't feel it I guess. The water was still. The plants were still. I was still. Whew! "Thank you!" I said to the earth, to the ground, the divine. I felt eternally grateful that it stopped. I would not let my ego say "I did it." Because I know I did NOT do it. The divine did it, I just happen to witness it. I don't know if it is because I said "I love you" to the ground and I don't care. I am thankful ANYWAY. Maybe the divine was using my physical environment to speak to me, to let me know I am on the right track with this whole love and Ho'oponopono thing. Lol. I don't care, I am thankful and relieved. My life has taken a HUGE, monumental, earth-shaking (pun intended) turn for the better.
I FEEL the love. There were opportunities even today, as I write, where ordinarily I would have reacted with resistence. For example, as I write, Every is drawing with a black permanent marker all over the blank booklet I made to write down family traditions of love and inspiration. Ordinarily, I would have been angry, or at LEAST annoyed and disappointed that my book might not get to be used what I INTENDED it to be used for. But I let it go. I said in my mind to Every, to the book, to myself, and most importantly, to the divine, "I LOVE YOU." Suddenly, I felt okay. He can draw in it. What's the harm? Maybe there is a BETTER book to write down family traditions in. Maybe a better opportunity is awaiting that I am not even aware of yet. I might be limiting myself by becoming angry at my son for "ruining" my book, when it is all just part of a series of events to lead me to the REAL outcome that is perfect for ME. And sure enough, as I let it go, he drew for a couple minutes, then put the book and marker down, said "I'm done", and continued on his merry way. No tension. No anger. No resentment. No tantrum. From either of us. I realized that if I had gotten angry at him, that would have been ME throwing a tantrum about not getting my way. I would have been bitching and moaning, causing hurt to BOTH of us, all the while preventing myself from experiencing joy and inspiration. I suddenly had the inspiration of writing about my parenting journey in conjunction with this journey of love. I can SEE all the open opportunities awaiting me if I am just willingly to let go of my expectations of how I think things should be. And thank God for that. =)
